Sunday, May 11, 2008

Dear Mom

Dear Mom,

This is a really hard letter to write but I'm doing it anyways. This day only comes once a year and although I cried last weekend about it, I think I'm doing really good so far today. I miss you Mom, more than I think you realized. It doesn't go away, but at least now I can talk more freely about you and even want to scrapbook our photos! Only now am I wanting to celebrate holidays. Holidays just weren't the same for a long time but now it's better. And I even wanted to celebrate this one!

I'm doing really good. I'm finally getting motivated to get on the right track. Not that my track is bad, but I'm getting some choices done and out of the way. Nick and I are doing great, not that I want to run down the aisle anytime soon, but I think we are just enjoying ourselves. And that's good, because everybody goes at a different pace. But I'm trying to live my life, like you always told me to do.

And living life I am. I have wonderful friends, family and things going on right now in my life and I couldn't be happier. Well, I could if you were here, but you know what I mean. I hope I'm making you proud Mom and thank you for still being there throughout all these years. You may not physically be here, but I know you listen to me. And I know you still love me. Mom, thats the best of all. Because I love you too. :)
Love Beanbie